It hurts to love someone,
and not to be loved in return
but what is most painful is to love someone
and never finds the courage
to let the person know how you feel.

Oops, I sent a message telling what I felt. I didn’t get any reply. I was wondering if the message is delivered or not? It was a national message, got assured when my balance reduced.
Confused I tossed from side to side on bed. I know him for past twenty years, “how is he going to react? “Was the only thought in my mind.Unable to sleep in that night, I went and sat near the window. I kept watching the night sky for long time. I felt the night was unusually beautiful, the stars and the moon made me wonder. I was thinking of the times we spent together, in school, at home, the time I went spent playing cards. I was wondering from when it all started? it was hard to recollect twenty long years.I was touched by the gentle breeze. The breeze drove me crazy. I went back to the bed, closed my eyes. His thoughts became dream for me, and the dreams became sweet. That’s when I realized the importance for the word “sweet dreams”.
Next day I went to meet him. When he came near I started trembling. I took a deep breadth. I felt I need all the courage to tell what was in my little heart. I just began,” there is something I have to…” I couldn’t speak a word more, I gulped hard.I felt cold and hot at the same time. My palms were sweating.
He came closer, and all my courage evaporated.Without a word he took me in his arms, for few precious moments I didn’t feel like moving away. I wished; let the time stand still shutting out the world. He said,” some things have changed, the world will turn on, and things are bound to change”I kept starring unable to speak.He continued,” I am sorry, you are always a kid to me. I don’t have such feeling towards you. ”It was hard to come over it, but understood each word he meant.
Then I realize the fact that,” the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. You can’t go on well in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches”.

I felt I landed up in the wrong place. They were only few around me, but I could feel their steady revulsion attacking me. I had no option, but bear with, as my grades were held with them. I started walking towards the man, who ruled the cabin. I felt an aversion towards him. Who is he to rule me? I am not that insignificant. I thought, there were few other creatures under him, suffering just like me. May be I should call them, the oldies with old fashioned ideas, trying to rule the contemporary world. I sure that the only asset they possess is their big mouth, which can roll in all directions. And the only one with whom I could discuss things was the pretty women sitting next to me. Pretty not by looks but with her attitude. I was confused! Whom to trust?.

I was always in a place surrounded by women; this followed from school to college and didn’t end in my office also. But I was never gender biased as I was always known for my capable flirting. But first time in the air, I could feel the uncomfortable air puncturing me.

The days passed by with mutual insults. But I lost the battle. He had the upper hand, of course in all aspects. I didn’t know what his intensions were, but I knew he wanted to throw me out. Soon my stupidity touched him, made him realize I am a person wanting to be cared, with lots of similar dreams as his, without any direction.

I was summoned to do part of his projects. I sat straight facing him. I did loads of mistakes, but never got fired. I tied hard to not repeat them, but I failed. Then there were even stages were I had to travel with him. That’s when first he talked to anything other than subject. We discussed about my future, his dreams, my ambition, and what not.. I realized there was lots experience in every word he uttered. I thought I got a nice brother who can guide me and he was bold enough to accept it.

It was a very tiresome day. I was too exhausted to work any more. Bell rang giving me a new venture to explore and get out of the work. I ran to open the door and see who it was. As I expected a key to my hearts lock, one of my close friends.

As the weather outside was calm and cool, he offered me a ride. We parked the vehicle near the big wall. The big wall before me seemed like a end, as my hectic daily life. He took me high on the bridge, from where I could see the wonderful sea as beautiful as life. We decided to walk towards it. It was dark by then; we were walking along the seashore as cold waves washed my feet. I froze when the chillness struck me; I held his hands tight close to my heart. When I realized what I was doing, I glanced at him…


I stumbled in my heart receiving such a look from him. It made me wonder, so many thoughts. I stood there still. Unable to speak. He started walking fast, I couldn’t keep in pace with him, he was suddenly running away from me. I felt the sky was heavy above me. The sea is un-seemingly vast calling me to join it and promising to make me one among the stars. I sat blank, tears rolled down my cheeks. Just felt, all my dreams have shattered. His thoughts made me recluse, who knows when the love will strike.

In the moonlight, I saw a shadow in front of me, turned back to see who it was. A bunch of roses were in front of me, he was on his knees to propose me.. there was no time to talk, its was silence all round. All of a sudden , I felt his warmness running through my heart when my cold lips was on his.

sab apne premi ko chaand samjte hai,
lekin tu tho asmaan hai,
na koi disha dikate ho,
mego jaise apne roop badalte ho,

bina kuch kahe apna dil diya,
use vapas lene bi samne nahi aya,
kitne din tum satavoge yese,
apna banake door le chal is sansaar se...

mere pyar ,mere parchayi!...

subh chal padi is pyar ke rah me,
pyar mere peecha kiya parchayi ke roop me,
bahut kush hui me ye maanke,
peecha kar raha hai mera pyar,

aschary se deki mene,
gat thi ja rahi thi ,ye parchyi,
jab suraj tha mere upar,
dek nahi payi me us parchayi ko,

maan ne lagi juti hai ye pyar,
katinayi ke vakt chood degi ye haat,
lagi vahi ruk gaye ye jeevan,
muje nahi jana aagey kahi,

jab vakt beetha to pata chala,
mere peecha karne vali parchayi thi aagey,
muje disha dika rahi ti aagey,
muje apne lakshya thak pahuncha yi,

tab hi pata chala ,us vakth me,
parchayi cha gayi muj me,
hum ek bankar duniya ki shakti,
suraj se lade aur jeetey,

jeet kar jeet li ye parchayi mujko,
apna bana ke le gayi sath,
ye pyar parchayi hai,kabhi agey pichey,
leykin kabhi is duniya se mit thi nahi!....

mere hui mulakat...
ek ajnabi ke sath..
wo gaya mere samne se...
ek tut ta tara jeyse...

ab tak deki nahi ese chehre..
jis keliye ye dil phere..
tu bar bar ane laga sapno me...
lagne laga ek apno me...

me janti nahi tu kaun hai...
phir bi yeh dil tuje hi chahata hai..
bas tumse sirf ek hi cheez ki intazaar hai..
ha vahi.. amulya pyar hai..
pyar hai..